the zonked, yellowing alien

“I’ll just wait and see how far you can go”

Your words never fail to sting.

Last night was.. More than a little unpleasant. Imagine trying to block out the voice of someone running you down (and failing miserably) while racing against time to finish all your homework.

I really don’t need frequent reminders as to how much I pale in comparison with the other 2 in terms of academicperformanceportfoliocharacterwhatever – You’ll never know how lousy I feel after each assessment when my sixth sense tells me I won’t make it.

IwillnotletyougettomeImustnotletyougettomepositiveselftalkcomeoncomeoncomeon

I like Sandy Dane’s Peace, Love & Ice Cream (: It evokes a certain sense of tranquility and calmness that can sooth one’s frazzled nerves, well, mine at least! (I put Younha’s version on repeat last night haha)

Sandy Dane – Peace, Love & Ice Cream

It was peace, love and ice cream
Flowers and tambourines
Butterflies high
In the clear blue sky
And the summer breeze
And we knew how to breath
Freedom

With tears full of laughter
happy ever afters
and stories to tell
oh, we told them so well
in the glow of the fire
we sang the songs
of freedom

It’s time to relive all the memories
Catch every day in a frame

Sing with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back in time
Just for a minute to 69
Come sing along with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back again
We’re praying this time it will never end
Come sing along with me

It was peace, love & ice cream
We laid down in the grass
in the garden of Eden
we hoped it would last
but than time took away
the moment we faced
Freedom

It’s time to relive all the memories
Catch every day in a frame

It was peace, love & ice cream
With Flowers & tambourines
Na na na na na
It was peace, love & ice cream
We laid down in the grass singin’
Na na na na na
It was peace love and icecream
We sat down by the fire singin’
This is our chance to back again
Come sing along with me

):

HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS C’MON ALINA JUST THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!

I need to be injected with a huge dosage of positivity before anything else.

Disclaimer: All this is not supposed to make sense judging from the title of this post

Nutritional Value of Bananas

The slim thin-skinned bananas (think: skinnies!!!) were REALLY GOOD I TELL YOU, I love how they added friction (an edible rock element) to every banana peel so that people wouldn’t slip (: There were 5 bananas and 10 banana peels in total and the banana peels were all of excellent quality!!!!! Pity the munching of bananas was too loud for my liking.. It kind of killed my mood for a bit and I could tell the bananas themselves had trouble getting used to the entire banana-munching atmosphere too ):

Superfair was the bomb!!!! No wonder they say you should eat a banana if you want an instant energy boost (: It proved its sweetness through and through even though it had to shed 10 banana peels off consecutively. (I thought it was quite a feat!!!)

Superangular was the smoothest of them all (: I have never seen a better-looking banana in my entire life from such a close distance! And this banana is sure talented as hell, who in the world can peel skin off itself with such perfection?!

Supercute was one shy banana who was clearly uncomfortable with being in the centre of attention while at it! I heard its flesh was tender (: Too bad I didn’t get to taste even though I really wanted to..

Supernew looked better than predicted; I expected this banana to be full of spots but it turned out otherwise. Still, I think it was rather raw for its own good :S Oh well let’s just be fair and give it a bit more time to ripen.

Superfar was one banana blocked by the rest of the bananas in the bunch.. This is one powerful banana not to be underestimated – Though it couldn’t be seen, its charisma could still be felt (:

‘LADIES AND GENTLEMEN’ (HAHAHHHA), LET’S GIVE IT UP FOR THE BANANAS!! I love bananas, my craving for bananas (especially this species) can never be satisfied <3

After blacking out twice and feeling rather invalid for the whole of yesterday I’m glad to be still alive and well now haha (: It was.. The Worst Migraine Ever and I might have to go back to KKH for frequent check-ups again. I really.. dislike that place.

PS.Thank you to those who showered me with care and concern yesterday and people who asked about my well-being! *Touched touched touched* (:

All the unhappiness with M aside, I can hardly contain my excitement for……!!!!!!! I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR IT!!!!!!!!!! Yes the golden IT (: HAHA omg no pun intended!!! JINYAO~~~ ;D The excitement is good, helps to relieve my feeling stressed over the upcoming tests. YES BLOCK TESTS ):

Yay just a while more and we’ll be on the same ground! <3 (Literally :D)

Keep bleeding, just keep bleeding

All hail the woes of being a girl ):

Really quite tired I wish I could sleep now but I can’t — The head is getting the better of me ): I can’t do work and I can’t sleep so that brings me here haha.

Today was the first time I got to witness a wedding photoshoot! Tanz and Darryl went to Lower Peirce Reservoir, NUS and Hyatt Hotel and I could only join them when they were at Hyatt in the afternoon ‘cos I wasn’t free in the morning (I had GP & training) and it was fun while it lasted (: You know you know, the Presidential Suite (yes capital letters for dramatic effect hahahha) is CRAZILY HUGE, it’s gigantic humongous enormous stupendous *limited vocabulary* it’s WHOPPING BIG!! It’s bigger than my house.. I wish I could live there!! Believe it or not, it costs $3,500 to stay there for a night….. There are 4 plasma TVs in the suite and I wonder why 2 people would need 4 plasma TVs. One for each eye maybe?! Oh yeah that’s not to mention the walk-in wardrobe is thrice the size of my room.

I took some photos for keepsake, click here if you wanna see them! The couple is really sweet (:

I am addicted to this song now haha. I can never get sick of it! Or rather, I can never get sick of FTI heeheeheehee. They sang this at their first-ever concert in 2007 which explains why Wonbin is still with them in this video aaaaah I wish he didn’t leave! ): Seunghyun (new member) is okay but.. It’s just not the same. (Watch it in HQ)

Okay I give up, I have conceded defeat to The M again ): I’m going to pop the pills into my mouth now so that I can sleep grrrr I cannot stand taking medicine ):

I better wake up early tomorrow to do work to compensate for today!!

BLOCK TESTS BLOCK TESTS BLOCK TESTS ):

During Math today Cheryl and I talked briefly about FT Island!!!!! (: Haha I never knew she liked them too?!?!!

I absolutely love this rendition of Missing You :D You won’t regret watching it! (Watch it in HQ)

Actually I like all their songs hahahahahha I’m in a state of delirium right now can you tell!!!!!!!!

Yes I admit I’m sort of a closet rabid FTI fangirl :D

Hongki is so good-looking!!

Haha JY can you feel my excitement ;D

Omgggggg I just got tricked into eating a tablespoonful of ice cream!?!! My sister told me it was Yami Yogurt but……… It tasted more like ice cream to me!!! Okay maybe it’s yogurt ice cream but omg I totally didn’t need to eat yogurt ice cream -.- Prior to the whole yogurt saga, I read off a nutrition label wrongly so I ended up eating a piece of dried persimmon which was laden with sugar..?!?!! I seriously feel like puking now someone save me save me save me plsssss ):

Irritated x 1000000000000000000000000 ):< ):< ):< ):< ):<

Food scares aside, the past few days have been nothing short of busy. I'm enjoying almost every bit of it (: I think it's better to be caught up with work than to have nothing to do at all.

After a few sessions of dress-scouting, I finally got my dresses for Tanny’s wedding last Wednesday! The hype has already been built though her wedding is still 3 months away haha. The one I'm wearing in the day makes me look like a lime-green kueh lapis and the one meant for the night is just.. normal-looking. I don't really fancy the one I’m wearing at night but everyone says it suits me so I've to wear it sigh.

Argh am still thinking about the 'yogurt' and dried persimmon ): I hope they fight hard against the powers of my digestive system and disappear into nothingness.

Term 2 is over and we can finally take a breather. (It rhymes!)

Well actually not really.. What with revising for blocks, going back to school for extra lessons/consultations/trainings, helping out with the preparation of Tanny’s wedding, catching up with old friends and so on, my June hols are rather packed to say the least. Never mind, it’s comforting to know I won’t be idle and the likelihood of me wasting time is seemingly low. Seemingly, hehhehheh.

Today was the craziest last day of term ever, from listening to Eugene talk about weaving/sewing/cooking (basically being a virtuous and domesticated house-husband – he puts most of the female population to shame hahahha) to lazing around in the dance studio watching a few of the guys in our class breakdance when we were supposed to be at ___ _____ (oops).

My grades reflected on ISP are really terrible. When put together, my grades form a word with a negative connotation to it -.- I will buck up and wear high-knee socks, yes I will.

Oh yeah I’m supposed to get contacts this holiday too and I don’t know how in the world I’m going to put them on when I’ve got a phobia of sticking things into my eyes hahaha helpp ):

I think I better sleep now if not I’ll end up spending yet another night brooding over a recent setback.

Looking forward to tomorrow! Or rather, later (:

I don’t know what to feel anymore.

I would rather be alone
With aliens and rainbows
On the other side
Of the universe
And finally this is me
This is my coup de grace
My reality

Never really occurred how much this means to me until now.

Haha I amaze myself sometimes – I don’t even know the outcome and yet I’m already behaving as though it didn’t turn out in my favour.

It’s been a while since I’ve wanted something so badly.

Not looking forward to the week ahead at all.