the zonked, yellowing alien

How long can you hold out in this masquerade?

It’s been too long, far too long, way too long.

I cannot stand reading my blog posts -.-

So here’s a song to flush all my posts down (hopefully they get through to the sewage system via a toilet bowl) (:

Eva Avila – Bittersweet

The nightingale sings a song for free
Sounds like my own symphony
I’m almost hypnotized by the sound
I wake up and you’re not around
Here things are moving very slow
Especially when it comes to letting go

Never thought the situation
would reach this place
Never thought I’d see a stranger
when I see your face
Can’t believe I feel alright ’bout
walking away
But I feel okay
Even in defeat
It’s bittersweet

One by one the walls came down it’s true
And God knows that we built a few
There’s only one left around and that’s you
But it’s left me with quite a view
Of the world that I’ve only seen
Somewhere in a magazine

Never thought the situation
would reach this place
Never thought I’d see a stranger
when I see your face
Can’t believe I feel alright
’bout walking away
But I feel okay
Even in defeat
It’s bittersweet

Every time that we come
close to finding a solution
You seem to find it impossible to say
I’ll meet you halfway
I just pray you’ll be happy someday

Never thought the situation
would reach this place
Never thought I’d see a stranger
when I see your face
Can’t believe I feel alright
’bout walking away
But I feel okay
Even in defeat
It’s so bittersweet

Bittersweet

Thanks to those who asked whether I’m alright, I really appreciate it (:

Urgh, feeling ill and miserable.

What with a few more pieces of homework to complete, Geog test to study for, the Spatial Challenge thingy to work on (!!!!!!!!!), the rest of this week is going to be filled with much fun (:

OPTIMISM, BABY~!!!

I’m tired of you making 2 years seem like a whole big deal – I thought we’ve been there, done that?

UPDATE: HAHAHAHAHHA SO MUCH FOR BEING ALL LOW AND CRANKY OVER MY WALLET!!! GUESS WHAT, MY MUM FOUND ITTTTTTTTTT. IT’S ACTUALLY AT HOME, hidden in between many jugs of water and the hatchdoor!!!!! NOW I FEEL : -.- + (:

THANKS EVERYONE WHO TRIED TO CHEER ME UP TODAY AND THOSE WHO WISHED ME GOOD LUCK ON MY WALLET HUNT (:

Aaaarrrgghhhhh I really can’t believe myself when such things happen.. I have officially misplaced my wallet!!!!! I was still hoping it would be somewhere at home.. Until now. I have given up on looking for it already. I don’t even know how I misplaced it, I suspect I dropped it on my way home from school last night. I’m so pissed off with the fact that i’m this careless more than anything else.

Déjà vu – I feel the same way as I felt in Sec 2 when my phone got stolen from my bag while I was carrying it..

Sigh I feel so disoriented now. Spent such a long time at Tampines Sports Hall waiting to play our match and in the end we (Woonlue and I) played so badly we promised each other to keep our scores a secret haha. On the bright side, we didn’t get thrashed (: I’m just trying to redeem myself from all the unhappiness I’ve been through today.

SIGH ): IF YOU SEE A BLACK WALLET WITH AN IC, EZLINK, CASHCARD, POPULAR CARD ETC, AND ABOUT 10 OVER BUCKS PLEASE CALL ME OKAY? (: I WILL BE INDEBTED TO YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Tired, dejected and disappointed.

I have such a looooong to-do list which involves stuff such as trying to understand Math ASAP (!!!!…!!!!), wrapping ultra belated birthday presents and so on!

But with a migraine of this scale, I think I’m better off sitting here blogging so that I can distract myself from the pain even though it’s not exactly a very wise idea since the glare from the monitor is also getting to me.. GRRRR ): You know, it really is scary to lose your sight all of a sudden for a few minutes.. I’m still somewhat grappling with such a .. condition even though it has been what, 4 years? Well I wouldn’t want to call it ‘condition’ because ‘condition’ has a serious undertone but I have a pathetically limited vocabulary so I don’t know what else to call it so I’ll call it ‘condition for now yes I know I’m rambling and wow this sentence is really long!

My sister snorted at me when she asked me what my CCA is. “Why so boring??!?!!?? You’ve been playing it since don’t know when and yet still so lousy!!” Hahaha yeah thankssss thankssss thankssss..!! I couldn’t retort even though I wanted to because what she said is true -.-

I <3 406 ‘ 08 & NYBT!! Nicole if you’re reading this, be honoured, you’re the only one whom I love twice hahahahahahha!!! Yayyyy there’s gonna be a team outing and class gathering really soon, like, REALLY SOON (:

OKAYYYYYYYY MAYBE I SHOULD HIT THE SACKS AND SEE WHAT LAST-MINUTE WORK I’M CAPABLE OF TOMORROW MORNING I CANNOT TAKE IT ALREADY.