the zonked, yellowing alien

Now’s not the time to be harbouring such doubts.

Really.

“Don’t let the worry/fear of the situation become a problem in itself” – I think this is precisely what’s happening.

What’s most scary is that I’m even telling myself I’m okay.

Death is only able to separate the departed from the living in physical terms and that’s just about it. Though powerful in its own way, it doesn’t have the ability to sever love ties between two parties.

Love is immortal and the precious memories it leaves behind will always be remembered.

We will always be here for you whenever you need us <3

Death is Nothing At All – Henry Scott Holland

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well.

“Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on.” – Henry Rollins

Life is like driving bumper cars. It’s one continuous ride in which we greet and collide with others, constantly negotiating ins and outs. We slam, sidle, edge, sideswipe into friendship, love, alliances, affairs, partnerships and cliques. Sometimes we back out and sometimes we don’t. Sometimes we stay: because we’re ecstatic and at least comfortable or because it pays and it’s convenient or maybe simply because we can’t seem to work the reverse gear.

All of us have had our share of suffering in this world and some have had much more. Until we walk miles in the shoes of those people, it’s not for us to question why those who cannot bounce back cannot. It’s not that they no longer want to mop up the mess, let go and go. Whoever doesn’t want to experience that sweet relief?

Sometimes we’re just plain afraid to leave.

Today’s full run was quite disappointing for me though the rest thought it was kind of good. Rather upset I only managed half a set earlier on before my voice started sounding so strained and unsteady. Fortunately the music was loud enough to overpower my voice, so no one really noticed except myself and David who asked if I was okay and whether I could continue towards the end of the fourth. I think I’m far too afraid of not being able to meet my own standards that it no longer is a form of enjoyment it once used to be.

Thanks Celestine & Shaun for taking turns to message me the lamest jokes ever for the sake of cheering me up (: And the rest for being their usual hyper selves that always brings a smile to my face (:

Did a lot of Math after that and I love the sense of accomplishment that washes over me after seeing that I’ve obtained the right answers!! PERSEVERE ALINA PERSEVERE YOU CAN DO THIS YOU CAN DO THIS THIS IS JUST BUT ANOTHER HURDLE YOU HAVE TO CROSS PLEASE DON’T GIVE UP YOU’LL BE MORE THAN FINE I PROMISE (sigh positive self-talk at its best)

Need to hunt for more photos of Tanz and Darryl for the wedding photo montage and by hunt, I really mean hunt!! Just a while ago I was googling some stuff and I chanced upon THIS!! If you scroll all the way to the bottom you’ll see them! I like Tanz’s nerd specs (: Oh and they weren’t introduced by mutual friends.. They were classmates right from the start -.-

Alright I probably should sleep now, I need to wake up early to go to school tomorrow (or rather, later) for Physical Geog! Meeting Chao, Lup and the rest at Serene C first for breakfast, I think I’ll meet them slightly later since I’m not planning to eat at Mac’s :D I’ve got yummy rustic wholemeal bread for breakfast from Carrefour! *drools even before sleeping*